Suffering & Confusing

10 weeks to go, now oni 4rd weeks and my life getting suffer n confusing.
I duno why.. =(
Kept to tell myself "i can do it well,i shud do it!" but,it was hard and stress.
Bill was paid, its ald a fact tat i cant change anymore,
i juz can accept it and try my best to study hard.
I asked myself again n again, "izit tis is da life i expect to? Izit tis is da choice?"
No answer at all...
Since i promise them i will continue and archive to da goals tat they expect to me,
i felt stressful and suffer. ='(
Everything was carried out unstop for me,cant breath when all da stuff suddenly appear in my mind and i hav to settle all in a same time.
Nt enuf time is nt da excuse for me anymore,i shud be arrange my time in well, but i didn't.
Hav no energy to continue,felt tired.

Need to drink, need to release out. ='(